internet withdrawls.

i've been having a few, i'll admit. our internet isnt working great, even still, and i'm taking my chances being on here, but i just couldnt help it. i havent been on since, like, last wednesday. its not cool, my friend, not cool. it just all of a sudden stops working for no reason..it should be fixed for good sometime tomorrow or today or sometime pretty soon. hopefully. although maybe it is a good thing..apparently i CAN survive without it..not very happily, and only if i ask other people for my assignments in some classes that are all online..but its not a happy experience. i'd rather have the world at my fingertips-all the time. its quite a reassuring thing. i've had many things happen that i thought, oh i'll just get on the internet and figure that out...but NO, i couldnt. it was slightly terrible.

on a totally different note, today was stressful. but pretty okay, after all. i stressed way too much about it, i can say now, as i look back and see that it really wasnt that much of a big deal..okay so maybe it was. but i'd like to let go of all that stress and be happy that it turned out somewhat well. today was stake conference. and i was assigned a solo to sing AND a talk to give. i sang the second verse of I Stand All Amazed, and then, right after pretty much, i gave a talk about why i believe in Christ. my mother says it was really good because she looked out at the congregation and saw a lot of tissues going around. personally i couldnt see a thing, i could barely read the talk even. but she was crying too, so i dont know how she saw them all. the most touching though, was afterwards, when president mackay gave me a hug for about a minute, and he wouldnt let me go, and i could feel him crying. he's so sweet. and brother reed, calling me and choking up as he tried to tell me how much he appreciated my talk. i honestly didnt think it would make that big of an impact, but i've been getting calls all day thanking me for the talk..i've never had that happen before. its an odd feeling. thinking that i might have impacted someone today that i wouldnt even know about. a good odd though, i'd say. all in all, it wasnt as bad as i imagined it could have been..i saw all sorts of scenarios run through my head before it all happened, seeing every way that this could go terribly wrong, but i was praying all morning--most literally keeping a prayer in my heart today. and it went smoothly. i thank Him for that. and i think i could use a little break from the public speaking thing for QUITE awhile now...i suggested that to president smith, but he said it doesnt work like that..maybe i'll get lucky.