The Dream Journal.

i have always had vivid dreams and remembered them when i woke up. most dreams were pleasant, about something that had happened, or about someone i knew. only a few were ever actually bad, but i have definitely had my share of murder dreams. this probably stems from my Bones, Psych, NCIS, and Monk obsessions, but i've definitely been the victim of a few bad dreams-involving serial killers especially. a couple nights ago i had a dream that a serial killer wanted the BYU creamery, but the BYU creamery was my home. he was trying to get to me in my home, in the BYU creamery. there were other details, but that was the gist of it. since when is the creamery home?? or BYU for that matter? its not. just to get that straight. and when BYU features in my nightmares..there has to be something wrong with that.

but then last night. usually i've been having baby dreams, or dreams in which i'm pregnant (don't read too much into that). but last night, i had a dream i've never had before. i was going on a mission. now why would i do that? i was going on a mission to Sweden. now, i love Sweden, and i was excited to go there, but i had this conflicting emotion like i wasn't supposed to go on a mission, like it was wrong of me. especially since i was only 19. and then, as i have often thought as my friends leave on their missions how terrible it would be to try to pack for two years, or in my case one and a half, my packing anxiety featured in my dream. i was on my way to the airport when i realized i'm going to SWEDEN, and that it gets COLD. i didnt have any jackets, gloves, tights, etc. i didnt even have a suitcase with me. nothing. no long missionary skirts, no button up blouses, nada, zip, zilch, zero. while i was freaking out about that, i woke up.

it really threw me off, this dream. i'm not going on a mission..its just not feasible. i might if i could go at 19, but when i'm 21 i'll be one semester and a capstone away from getting my nursing degree, and to leave then would just be stupid. that is, if all works out in that department. but anyway. that's all folks!

Princess and the Frog

i am not kidding you.

its my favorite disney movie.

no, its just my favorite movie. of all freaking time.

tonight i watched it in the varsity theatre. on BYU campus. and it was slightly fantastic. you could definitely tell it was BYU though, seeing as we watched the previews with all the lights turned on their brightest and there were couples everywhere. then a girl gets up & starts talking to us..she was hilarious in and of herself. she started saying something about some campus activity going on on the 20th of march, then stops herself to tell us that that is also the day that her 78 year old grandma is getting married. she called today to say she was engaged. BAHAHA. then she tells us of her most embarrassing date...she had an allergic reaction to chicken nuggets at Wendy's and on the way home her face was swelling up like in Hitch..then she felt like she needed to vomit. she was riding in the front seat of this rich kid's mercedes. no joke. she puked in this guy's car. then tried to gather it all up in her sweater and run home. siiicckk.

so that was preceding the movie. then during the movie, i get so excited. i love it. so much. i'm pretty sure i squealed through the entire thing. and the audience was great..all the girls were making such great noises i wasn't alone. oh, disney. how i love you. this beats all other disney movies though. i mean, they're still classic, and fantastic..but this one is over the top amazing. plus, the prince wears a sweater vest. definite point ringer, that one.

this line got the best reaction from the girls in the crowd (spoiler alert!!):

Naveen: Once you became my wife, you became...

Tiana: A princess. You just kissed yourself a princess.

Naveen: And.. I'm about to do it again.

the general "AWWWWW!!" from the audience said it all. or maybe it was the accent...??

;D

"I'm a big, tough girl. I tie my own sandals and everything."

i've been thinking about hercules all weekend. why? no idea.

but when i got off the snowmobile scott was driving, i felt like meg getting off of pegasus.

"I'm Megara. But my friends call me Meg. At least they would if I had any friends."

my hair was everywhere. i had it in a pony, but what could escape from the holder did. and my bangs flew all over my face. the cold made my eyes water, and my freshly applied mascara ran down the sides of my face like tears.

"I'm a damsel, I'm in distress, I can handle this. Have a nice day."

i hadn't quite gotten my voice back, from screaming at scott at the top of my lungs. mostly informing him that a fence was coming up very fast. and my thigh muscles trembled (so I walked like an idiot) from the attempt to stay in my seat instead of flying off of it every time scott went over a little bump way too fast.

"I'll be fine. Just get me down before I ruin the upholstery."

not that i didn't enjoy it. i only thought i was going to die a couple of times. but here i am, in one piece, and i even lived to blog about it.

here are some more Meg quotes. and, they're really fantastic. whoever made this movie had so much fun with her character.

~"Well, you know how men are. They think "no" means "yes" and "get lost" means "take me I'm yours."

~"Hey, I've sworn off manhandling."

~"Think your nanny goat would go berserk if you played hooky this afternoon?...Aw, Phil Schmil. Just follow me, out the window, round the dumbbells, you lift up the back wall and we're gone."

~"Meg: Do they give you a name to go along with all those rippling pectorals? Herc: uhh, mm, uhh.. Meg: Are you always this articulate? Herc: Hercules! My, my name is Hercules. Meg: Herc, huh? I think I prefer Wonderboy."

~"Aw, how cute. A couple of rodents looking for a theme park."

~"He comes on with this big innocent farm boy routine, but I could see through that in a Peloponnesian minute."

~"I don't think your Pinto here likes me very much."
~"Don't worry, maybe Shorty here can explain it to ya."

Who wants to watch Hercules now?

~"Thanks for everything, Herc. It's been a real slice."

Usually

usually, i don't post about bad weeks. bad things. or actual emotional events in my life.

it hasn't been a usual week.

i can't even begin to explain how bad this week has been. and it's only wednesday. for example: today. its only ten oclock. but last night i forgot to set my alarm. so i woke up 10 minutes before my first class started..and just gave up. there's no point trying to make it then. especially without a shower. and this class takes attendance. then, when i get up to take a shower to make my next class at 9, someone is in it. so i wait. and skip my next class too. when i look at the fridge in the morning, the picture that i had put on it of my niece had been turned around and put back up. why would someone do that? apparently i offended one of my roommates by putting a picture of a baby up on the fridge. heaven forbid. maybe they were worried that we would run out of white space on the fridge surface. its in short supply. at 1045 today, i'm supposed to go to a TA office and review a paper i havent written. due friday at 9am. and at noon i have to decide whether to go to chemistry or skip it and go to the physiology review for the test i haven't studied for-because all the times that the reviews are, i have something else i should be doing right then. i have to take this test by friday. theres a housing fair today, but that runs all through my class schedule as well. i got the bad news about the house i wanted on monday, right after i tripped and biffed it up the steps to my own apartment. the nursing application is available now, which is a nagging stresser outer anyway. i've been ten times as homesick as usual, which can only help.

and all i want to do is go home.

It's a Beautiful Day

Warm (about 40), slight drizzle (not snow!), some sun, mostly cloudy though.

rain boots, sweats, bright green umbrella.

frank sinatra, showers

100% on a test

country songs. cowboy boots. horses. horse manure.

friends, gmail chat.

chatting with my grandpa on the phone.

nicely manicured nails.

just some of the things that have made me happy today.