Serendipity

i googled my name. i shouldn't have done that.

because i saw my future.

Greylock Animal Hospital Inc.-Rebecca Mattson, DVM

oh dear. apparently--i'm going to vet school. that is, unless i change my name ;) (if you know what i mean.)

she is a mother of three. she loves to sing. she has three cats. she practiced in utah. she has a husband who is a pediatrician.

vet school prereqs it is.

The definition of Grown-Ups.

(i'm seriously going to do this one day.)

Wildlife and Wildlands Conservation

is the name of my new major. fancy shmancy, isn't it?  people ALWAYS ask what it is. is it not obvious?  or are they just from utah; where recycling is a naughty word? (they make you pay to recycle here.  way to encourage stewardship of the earth!)  or maybe, all the W's are throwing people off. or conservation is too big of a word. for any still confused:  

wildlife (wild things, as in animals and plants that are wild) and wildlands (places that are not inhabited by humans) conservation (the act of preserving).  

the question of what i could do with it is plausible. in fact, i'm still figuring it out. in fact, i'm still figuring out what i want to do with it. all i know is, i want to work with animals.  here are some potential career choices (even if my parents call them hobbies):

-wildlife biologist

-zookeeper

-wildlife conservation officer

-zoologist

these are just the jobs right out of college i could do.  

with more schooling:

-vet tech

-moorpark college (zookeeper)

with a few (plus a few more than a few) more classes, and probably a residency in WA, i could apply to vet school. 

my ultimate dreams include:

-being a wildlife photographer for Nat Geo

-training sea lions (and possibly doing a show like Fools with Tools)

-being a vet (or vet tech) at a zoo or aquarium like Adam Sandler.

-being someone on Animal Planet, like good ol' Steve Irwin.

i'm just not sure how motivated i am to go to more school. i really hate school.  school and i don't get along. today's world without it, though.. its impossible. i just wish it would all slow down.

Happy Days

Amber: Judy.   Me: Barbra.
This is our song that will keep the foul winter woes away. And whatever other woes (probably boys.) come our way.

the thing about college is..

i feel a void.  a void where the people and things i care about should be. a void that should be full of lily. my sister.  my beautiful big black labradors.  my mom.  my family. my best friends.

i guess my nurturing side is overpowering at times. okay, most times. or all times.

i got a couple of plants.  but they don't do much. i can care for them, but not about them.  its not the same.  a labrador will tell you he needs you 24 hours of the day. i could stand to be needed a little bit less, but its nice all the same.

but the things is..a void leads to emptiness. emptiness to loneliness.  and loneliness to sadness.

and for as unsociable and taciturn a nature as i have, i think i have a bit of a problem.

i'm just not cut out for college life.

because of course, the natural solution would be to get a dog. but living in college apartments really throws a wrench into that plan.

option b: get a baby. to do this would mean getting a husband or jeopardizing my spot in the celestial kingdom. neither of which i'm willing to do at this point.

option c: transfer schools.  UW?  in my dreams.  can anyone say out of state tuition??

option d: internship.  pros: out of utah, much more exciting. cons: still not with my family, and too much money (that would be my dad's con, even though its no more than a semester here)

option e: get a ferret named harold.

i did option e.