its sunday morning. i'm home alone because my parents and brother have gone to 9oclock church and mine starts at 1. but its an incredible sunday morning. it couldnt be more peaceful. i put on music-my servant joseph. and i can't seem to stop crying.
i love him-joseph smith. he is a prophet of God. and i just can't understand how people can deny it. it just makes sense.
i recently went to nauvoo..and it was amazing. walking where the prophet walked, seeing what he saw..it was the most incredible spiritual experience of a lifetime. the nauvoo pageant was amazing..and i'm sure i cried through 3/4 of it. the story of those early saints never fails to make me cry, and the hardships they faced were incredible. i just hope i can be half as faithful as those men's wives, and half as brave as those men in facing what they did. its just incredible to me. just incredible. to build a temple, use it once, then leave it..and watch it recede in the distance as you pushed your handcart away.. we walked the trail of hope that they did. and saw the temple in the distance as they did when they left their beloved nauvoo. it must have been heartwrenching. its almost too much to bear even now. that temple is amazing. we went in to do baptisms..and its so beautiful. so beautiful. later we went to carthage jail. we saw the bullet hole in the door. the window where joseph smith fell out of. and i cant even describe to you how much i knew that he was a prophet of God. it just makes sense. i dont understand how other people dont feel like they've been punched in the gut when they hear about the saint's trials and what they did for the gospel. its such a humbling experience being out there too...like my trials are nothing compared to these saints, and what have i got to complain about? i'm so freaking blessed its not even funny. i have also found what i can do with my talents. i'm determined to do one of those missions that all the people out there were doing. a performing mission? i dont even know what they're called or how i'll go about it, but i will do it. i've heard all my life that i need to make use of my talents, but singing in sacrament didnt seem like it was cutting it. i'll go sing to all the people in nauvoo about what i know to be true.
it just makes sense.
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WOW! Now that's an ambition. :D And you would be amazing at it, if you could keep from crying while singing it. haha I got teary eyed in carthadge jail when I went. and the trail of hope with all the plackes was awesome. I love Nauvoo!
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