Life is hard?

thats news to me.

i swear no one told me it was going to be this hard. (but my parents say they did.)

i suppose half of it was my fault.

maybe i shouldnt have tried to do everything at once. maybe i should have slowed down, listened to the spirit, and done the major thing right-the first time. maybe i should have gotten on top of things right from the start, and i wouldnt be in the position i am now. maybe i should be looking at things ahead of the due date, not after it passes by. maybe i should have read my chemistry exam closer, and not made 4 stupid mistakes. maybe i should have not looked at the screen to see my biology test score. maybe i shouldnt have taken a job at the insect lab.

but would it be half as fun?

actually, probably more fun. and not so stressful. but whats a few extra pounds? everyone loves that. maybe i'll just stick to the phrase "learning experience." no one likes that. but it suits.

and now, i'm out to get a 3.8 GPA (at least) and get accepted into the nursing program. who would have thought? the animal girl, being a people person? it is strange. but right. it might just kill me though. if not literally, it will almost certainly take its toll on my figure. good thing nurses wear scrubs.

chris.

needless to say, i'm struggling a bit. but with some good music, and some actual sleep, i should get back on my feet here soon.

on the brighter side. my hair's short. i love it. i think i'll cut it even shorter soon. don't cry karina. but if i travel to any foreign country (which is a certainty) it will inexorably be cut off. mercilessly and without regrets.

i'm thinking of spending the summer either in africa (http://www.help-international.com/) with orphans or HIV positive people, or in renton, WA. i'll be the best aunt EVER.

and my baby is adorable. little lily!!