halloween memories

of these, i have none. unless they're terrible. like my dog (take your pick, i think all of them did it) eating my candy every year. the whole pillowcase full. and then the year my mom told me i wasnt allowed to trick or treat. and then the year that i was grounded and couldnt even go see my friends. and then the next year when i was grounded again and couldnt do a darn thing. although i did go next door with my backpack under the pretense of doing "homework"...and in this instance, homework had multiple meanings. but, these are my halloween memories. i have a few from wayyyy back, of a party with lauren <3 and we did all sorts of fun things and had a funky menu that we had to guess what we wanted...that was fun. and of swapping halloween candy with siblings after we got home. putting it neatly into piles and trading between all of us. (before the dogs got to it). until we got too old, then jenna and eric would just steal our candy. and now, i'm too old. i'm too old to dress up, to trick or treat, etc. i'm too young to stand at the door waiting for the little kids, or to take my own around the neighborhood. and i'm too mormon to go to all the teenager parties that will be going down. so what do i do? what merit does halloween hold for me? nothing? work? the primary party that i have to plan and put on? the dance that is lame? just like all other dances. except you cant even tell who the heck you're dancing with at this one. so, nothing. i do nothing. i could watch a scary movie, sitting next to a boy, using the movie as an excuse to cling. i could hang out with friends. do pretty much what i would normally do on a friday night...sit on my fat butt and watch a movie. ah well. we'll see.
but today, i hope, was the start of some good halloween memories. for the first time since i can remember, i carved a pumpkin. seriously. it was sooo muuch fun. and, again, for the first time i can remember, i went to a pumpkin patch. it was unbelievable! halloween can be positive! and i'm going to make delicious pumpkin seeds...which i vaguely remember. but all in all, today, and the halloween spirit, were pretty dang amazing. i can't ever remember liking halloween this much. and i didnt need candy to do it! how amazing.
well i think that ends this blog.
yay for halloween! (at least thats how i feel today. no promises for tomorrow)
becca out :)