that cycles never end. here i am, awake at 1130 at night, doing homework, and still not being finished, when i spent from 1230-400 doing pretty much nothing. i slept. i ate. i facebooked. i texted. i talked on the phone. when does procrastination end? i am so dog tired right now. i see why i spent a lot of my afternoon sleeping. (plus my mother's bed is like a sleep inducing vortex. you touch that thing and theres no going back. you're officially on the dark side.) i swore to myself i was going to be better. i swore to myself that this year i would change. but all that thinking and hard work? did abso-freaking-lutely nothing. i wonder--is it that i dont want my cycles to end? i'm definitely not happy doing it this way. but would i be happier the other way? sleep is always good. and obeying parents brings a lot of peaceful days. arguing does take a lot. (dont tell them i said that) but i dont know that i have the strength to break free from the habits that i've always had...and from the looks of it, always will have. huh.
speaking of habits. i can see this is going to be a bad one. but, what can be done?
Monday, October 20, 2008
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Hey lady... I'm adding you to my list of people to blog stalk.
Unfortunately, I'm old and my cycle still hasn't changed. I still procrastinate, stay up way too late, don't get enough of the important things done, manipulate people and continue to make promises that someday I'll be a morning person (that's just a straight up lie)... I have yet to see any of it happen. :)
jfyi: its not just YOUR mom's bed, its ALL mom's beds. mine is the same sleep inducing vortex, too. its terrible. i dont even walk to that end of the hallway anymore...
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